Interference? II

A lot of similar things I mentioned in the previous post on this topic have happened too: a man wearing an ”I love Korea” shirt at a university restaurant; a woman with Swedish features wearing eyeglasses with a Shinto gate shaped frame and pretty likely the same woman staring at her phone (very common with the suspicious people I encounter) on the yard of my apartment building the next day or the day after that when I returned home; a very ”hook-nosed” man in front of me at a store buying a pack of suitably exotic cigarettes that were sold there as a surprise to him; a very particular looking female worker at an optical store saying silently: ”I’ll get AB!”; a female grocery store worker I afterwards suspected of being a ”zombie” who started to talk about my receipt disjointedly before I had mentioned it — ”Wasn’t there at all?” she began — when I returned to pay for a discounted product missing from the receipt after difficulties at the self-checkout (She could not have seen me look at the electronic receipt on my phone.)², me saving a picture resembling the situation on my Pinterest and later male bus drivers who seemed like consciousnesses to me but weren’t interested in inspecting my ticket — ”There’s no need,” one of them said; maybe a little too many encounters with members of groups I’ve classified as suspicious, who seem to know about me and don’t feel like they are primarily on the way to somewhere else… (Can some of these be ”missions” Satan worshipers do?)

My task of ”spreading the word” has also met other difficulties besides the ones related to email traffic. I’ve been banned from Reddit, for example. Can a person suffering from mental health issues really find my advice offensive? I got more positive than negative feedback. And no one accused me of antisemitism, for example. Someone upholding the ”phony world” and controlling public discussion by pretending to be a mental health patient online would sound pretty strange too though… I also suspect that some people collected slips of paper with the address of my blog from mailboxes after I had been distributing them.

I’m not able to register on the message board of pakkotoisto.com (a Finnish bodybuilding site): the confirmation email doesn’t arrive in my mailbox. The moderators of the message board of punkinfinland.net don’t approve my messages that contain the address of my blog. (Can there be dark parties of punks where souls are sold? The zombies they later leave behind — the contract possibly stipulates your lifespan or they play games you can die in — go to talk about the Finnish version of Gogglebox on Punk in Finland?) Facebook closed my account when my post ”My Bullies From ’90s & ’00s Nokia, Finland and What Happened to Me” included the full names of my bullies. My WhatsApp account was closed a couple of times because of spamming but I got it reactivated. I’m not sure if my messages always get delivered now. Spamming with it brings my blog a lot less visitors than it used to. Viber and Signal don’t seem to work properly either. They don’t often find numbers that can be assumed to be in use. Randomi.fi (a Finnish chatting site) removed my ads that included my posts on the best way to live and becoming free of fear. Vuodatus.net (a Finnish blogging site) locked my account. My blog there (otjkt.vuodatus.net) includes the full names of my bullies from my childhood. My emails to foreign online stores seem to get delivered now. The visitor counter on Blogger seems less trustworthy than the visitor counter on WordPress: it has gone up about a hundred times more in a couple of tests. Badoo closed my account due to a terms and conditions violation: I had spread the address of my blog there. The last person I messaged before getting banned was a Swedish-looking overweight gay man — he had registered as a woman probably, I swipe everyone to the right — with an empowerment-themed tattoo. Badoo and Bumble also removed my profile photo that was a screencap of my ”The Best Way to Live” post. I had put it on my dating profiles after seeing a profile of a newly wheelchair bound Swedish Finnish woman. I wondered if it could prevent such accidents. Vauva.fi (a Finnish message board of a former parenting magazine) removed my message that was a partial copy of my blog post ” Becoming Free of Fear and Probably Something Else Too” when I posted it with my name. They let the same post remain there at least a while when I posted it anonymously.

An excerpt from my diary:

”A redneck who doesn’t ’take it well’. You tell him you are a more badass horse bettor. In the biggest horse race. But you know everything about horses, too. Does he take it well? No, he doesn’t. He rides by on a moped near your home and disingenuously asks you the way to Kauniainen¹.”

Buddhist temple (Wat Arun) jigsaw puzzle in a student restaurant of the University of Helsinki (16 October 2023)

¹ A quite pretty town  — that’s in its name too — near Helsinki inhabited by lots of Swedish Finns.

² Edit 25 December 2023: It is possible she saw me walking back with the product in my hand, remembered the situation, deduced I had checked the receipt, guessed which of the two was the problem in it and was quick to speak.